Fasting

So for some reason, well with the help of David's "encouragement" tonight by him telling me to enjoy my last night of internet, I have realized that yes tonight is my last night on the internet for a season. I am glad that we have decided to do this fast, and I truly believe it will only allow our faith in God to become so strong as well as our relationship with Him. It will reveal who we really need to control our lives- that is, in ALL that we do. David and I are doing this for the glory of God, and I know that God is already smiling down at us. David said that we hope to eliminate a majority of what distracts our thoughts from being focused on God and God's will for our lives. I pray that God will give me the strength during the duration of this time. I yearn for my relationship with God to deepen.Through this both mine and David's relationship with God will grow immensely. I know how faithful God is, so I am willing to make sacrifices as such in order to gain more enlightenment and clarity from God.

For me personally, it will be the one of the toughest things I have ever done. The internet is a life line to me, and I hope that gradually changes over this course of time. I know that with the help of God and with the help of the people who are truly the closest to me, I will get through this, and I know I will grow so much with God, and learn a lot about my self that I have never known before. I know that God will give me clarity on so many things in my life during this time. I'm not exactly sure how long this will continue on for, but I know for sure the start of it will be two weeks long. I feel that this will be one of the best things I have ever done for my life, and I know the same goes for David; It is just going to be hard for me, but I know nothing is easy in order to gain what is best for our lives and relationships with God. God says be prepare for what you will suffer! Revelation 2:10 says "Do not be afraid of what you are about to suffer. I tell you, the devil will put some of you in prison to test you, and you will suffer persecution for ten days. Be faithful, even to the point of death, and I will give you the crown of life." I believe David and I decided that this is our battle cry for God! Although I know that suffering will be present at times, I will keep in my mind that this is worth it. I know sometimes I will wonder why am I doing this? What good is going to come out of this? How will this benefit me? God reveal to me now why I am doing this? But I will reflect on these two verses: John 16:12 which says "I have much more to say to you, more than you can now bear" & John 13:7 which says "Jesus replied, "You do not realize now what I am doing, but later you will understand."
Later doesn't necessarily mean in this life time either...

I know that the more I seek God, the more I will find Him. It's just like one of my favorite songs titled "The More I Seek You"
The chorus goes as this "The more I seek you. The more I find you. The more I find you. The more I love you. I want to sit at your feet. Drink from the cup in your hand. Lean back against you and breathe, feel your heart beat. This love is so deep. It's more than I can bear. I melt in your peace. It's overwhelming."

If you go to the following website any one of those tracks will work if you would like to listen to this song: http://www.playlist.com/searchbeta/tracks#The%20More%20I%20seek%20you

I am interested and extremely excited for what God is going to do with my life during this time. I know that I have truly been working on giving God my ALL and my EVERYTHING, and I just want to seek God out on every aspect of my life--which includes this fasting of technology- other than my cell phone obviously. This is one big sacrifice in my eyes, but in another aspect this really is no sacrifice God....here is my life!

I may post a blog every now and then to update you guys on how I am doing. (See, David and I are changing each others passwords on everything so that we won't be tempted to get on facebook, aim, blogspot, etc. BUT we decided if we really want to expose something on our blog we are going to let the other log on and post their blog.)I will still have my cell phone so you can reach me on there. I just ask for your prayers and God's guidance on this entire situation. Pray for my friend David as well, even for those of you who don't know him, as him and I are in this together.

God, here You go...break me down and chisel away!

"Before God uses a man, God will break the man."

(I know people say you shouldn't boast and let it be known that you are fasting, but I take that in a different context so for those of you who like to be technical about everything, it's okay, as for all I am doing is expressing my thoughts on the situation and ask for your prayers.)