Struggles With Sin

A friend of mine encouraged me to read Romans 7&8. So tonight I decided to read it. It explains the struggles man has with sin. It asks, "is the law sin? Certainly not!....But sin, seizing the opportunity afforded by the commandment, produced in me every kind of covetous deisre. For apart from law, sin is dead. Once I was alive apart from law; but when the commandment came, sin sprang to life and I died." Romans 7:7-10. So I am a slave that has been sold into sin.
"For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me" (Romans 7:15-17).
I have always had the desire to do what is good, but it's just the fact that I could not carry it out. I wanted the relationship that I used to have with God, but I let the sin inside of me take control of me. All of the stuff in life that I have done is not the good I want to do, but the evil that I do not want to do, I keep on doing. It is sin that has been living in me that does. I have realized that when I want to do good, evil is right there with me. God instilled in us to delight in Him, but the sins of law, of man, of the world, take control of what one really wants to do. We are the prisoners of our own mistakes, of our own lives. People who don't understand the mercy of God seem to wonder who can rescue them, and they look towards other things to rescue them. They allow the dead sin that sits inside of them to take control of their lives rather than God. Over the last year and a half/two years, I have strayed away more than ever. I allowed the sin inside of me that is to stay dead, live. I have allowed the sin to live within me. I have always had Christ in me as well, but "as Christ [lies within me, my] body is dead because of sin, yet [my] spirit is alive because of righteousness" (Romans 8:10).
Without the righteousness in my spirit, the spirit dies and that allows the sin to take over and rise up within me, altering my thoughts, judgements, decisions, and life. "Those who live according to the sinful nature have their minds set on what that nature desires; but those who live in accordance with the Spirit have their minds set on what the Spirit desires" (Romans 8:5).

Romans 8 continues on to say that "we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to his purpose."

I obviously was stuck in my own sin, allowing it to live within me, and not acknowleding God in any way at all. With sin our opportunities seize and disappear! God must bring us to our knees, and allow us to lay it all down to Him. Whether it is our fifth time to come back to God or our first, God accepts us as we are, and wants us to lay our entire lives down to Him, and let Him take control. He is the light to my day; I (my spirit) belong(s) to God.

We as humans, are dead to sin. It is up to us to let it live or not, because of God's free will.

"For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord" (Romans 6:23).